咪芽貓在美國

I don't know how to distangle myself from this sticky web..
here i am,
stuck...
waiting for the unknown future to gobble me up

Yes, I'm a coward...
I admit it
I'm also a stupid coward!!

i dare not to speak out..
to say sorry for the fault i made

I'm sorry, truely...
not repying your messeges
but that's because i forgot..
plus it's slow for me to type msg on my new cell phone

as for msn..
I shouldn't seal you..
but i feel bad every time you pop up for a chat
and all i can say is
"sorry, i'm busy!"

i just can't give more to you!
i don't have enough time, enough strength
to accept all the bad emotions you dump me

you are a friend...
but just a friend!

i have the right to refuse
yet you make my refusal look guilty

i hate the feeling!
i'm controlled by the old days, the old feelings
i dont owe you nothing!

however..
whenever i see your msn..
i feel bad...

what can i do?

sometimes, i just wanna give up..
saying sorry and let it be...
deep down..
i know you are waiting for an apology and my confession..

it's so hard..
half of my heart is telling me to give up..
shall i..?

i really don't know..


what a coward i am!!